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HeartSong to My Granddaughter

The warmth of her tiny body echoes on my chest

Sleeping as only a babe will do,

Her tiny heart beating its special rhythm in concert with mine –

Oh, my precious, newborn Granddaughter, has ever love been so captivating and so real?


Your presence in this world has already touched me in subtle, profound, indescribable ways.

The melodious toning of Legacy resounds gently and purely in your Being.

All the women before me rejoice in your arrival;

All the women to come cherish your imprint in this time.


Sacred language communicates from my heartmind to yours,

Thoughts only another enraptured grandmother may understand,

Not to be mistaken by the unknowing, precious, rare and fragile between us.


You are my blood and my best.

Your beloved mother, flesh of my flesh, beat of my heart,

Sculpted by her own experience, she now finds her own beautiful way through.


You are my blood and my best,

my firstborn grandchild, sublime Granddaughter.

All the Angels of the Earth sing your name in harmonious joy.

Their song resounds to the Heavens that surround us everywhere,

all the layers of Mother Earth, all the Winds and Stars and Sky

Filling the space of my inner consciousness with your Perfection.


May God keep you and protect you.

May your every Dream come true.

May you Love as truly and deeply as your precious parents love each other and you.

May you know the abiding, immeasurable Wonder and Love I feel for you.


I love you, my precious Granddaughter.

Let nothing ever interfere with you knowing that with all your Soul.

You are the Everything of Everything in a way I didn’t know was possible.

Thank you for being you.



                                                                                                            With love,

                                                                                                            Your Mimi

                                                                                                            May 23, 2014


The Light at the End of the Tunnel


The Light at the End of the Tunnel.

When you see the light at the end of the tunnel, it is not beneficial to go out and build more tunnel.

-Neale Donald Walsh

You know that feeling. “ The light at the end of the tunnel” feeling.

Something in your life unfolded that felt daunting, so big,  it felt even insurmountable.  Even so, you kept going, you persevered, you kept pushing forward, unwilling to give up, unwilling to go backward . You may have felt at times like you weren’t moving forward. But you kept going , in some way, in any way.

Then it happened: you saw the light at the end of the tunnel.

This is a universal kind of experience.  It may even be necessary as a part of the training ground that Life provides us.  Experience unfolds and you have another opportunity to grow in personal capacity for strength, courage, resourcefulness, and willingness.

When you finally see the light at the end of the tunnel you may get really excited. You may think. “ Oh, it is possible! I can make it! I can recover! I can feel better, find a better job, find another relationship, find a healthier relationship, make more money etc.”

What often happens under the surface, though, is that you get scared. You’ve been in that tunnel. It was dark. It felt long. At some point, feeling the struggle came to feel familiar. You became accustomed to  seeing what is wrong. You were in a state of seeing the problems rather than the solution.

So when you actually see the light at the end of the tunnel, when it seems possible that things may actually work out, you unconsciously start building more tunnel. You find more problem. You find more of what’s not working so you can stay in that state. Internally, your familiar state is extremely powerful and doesn’t want to change. It tells you “ Change is SCARY.” You end up building more tunnel.

This all makes perfect sense. You may have been taught to be a tunnel builder all your life.  It certainly feels familiar to me.  That is how I heard my parents thinking. “There is not enough.” “There may not be enough.” “ That is not a good decision because…” No, you cant’ do that because …” More tunnel that always kept the dream far away was pattern. It was a constant.

What gets repeated the most is what becomes familiar. What feels familiar is what gets internally perceived as safe. What feels familiar feels safe even when, from an outside perspective, one can see that it is not good for you. If seeing problem is the repeated pattern, that becomes the familiar way of being. It becomes the habituated way of being. Without realizing it, you think in terms of problem rather than in terms of solution. That keeps building more tunnel.

Habit is only habit.  It is not law. Any thought can become a habit if repeated enough. Any behavior can become a habit if repeated enough. Any habit, no matter how detrimental to you, can come to feel familiar, and therefore safe. When building more tunnel has become your habit, that is what feels safe. That is how you internally, unconsciously, keep yourself “safe.”

A habit, any habit, has been learned. It is a learned behavior and learned behavior can be changed.

I do not believe that your behavior is “who you are.” Behavior is simply behavior. It has been learned in response to the environment and can be changed. Behavior and consciousness are not the same thing.

 Do you want to reach the end of the tunnel? Do you want to come out into the light to see what new world lies there for you? Do you want to see the fruit of your positive intention? That requires consciousness. That requires character. That is who you are.

You must allow yourself to fight against the familiar and push outside of your comfort zone. You must stretch. You must push hard against the pattern, against the familiar, stretch hard to push through the forcefield of “safety” to break free into the new.

In Star Trek they would go to Warp speed to break out of the hold of normal time and space, get out of the reach of the enemy of the zone of destruction. Figuratively, you can do the same thing. It may even feel just as difficult at first. But when you take that giant push to propel yourself through the hold of the familiar, you land in new territory and new possibility.

Love yourself on the journey. Be compassionate with yourself and applaud your efforts! Be willing and keep moving forward. There is light at the end of the tunnel and you will approach it with more ease and more grace with every effort. You can do this and you will. I believe in you. 

Kathryn Tull, M.A., MFT

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